Why do we cry?
Why do we cry when we come? Not every time, perhaps, but why do we sob in those gasping tender moments just after?
It is because we have desired and desired and desired and desired hoping with a fierce burning white hot longing and then….we were not disappointed!to the relief of the soul!
Our soul so profoundly relieved to have displayed our desire so vulnerably and having our desire not abandoned or left to go hungry, but instead having our desire met with recognition and eager urgent nurture.
Our soul’s profound relief when our lover offers us themself unhurried yet urgent, unaware of time but completely absorbed in the tenuous interplay of desire and pleasure, pleasure and desire, asked and answered.
What relief of the soul can be found in the embrace of a lover who wants nothing more than to watch our pleasure unfold, shiver by delicious whimpering shiver.
And then we want and want and want and want our lover’s glorious urgency to keep going for we will surely die if they stop.
And then the exultant cry as we are surprised by a joy we intently, secretly, then openly longed for but we really only hoped existed.
(another excerpt from Erotic Mystic: Musings on God and Sex)